It's been crazy busy lately and I've fallen behind on my blogging. My life literally consists of writing lesson plans, reading pages upon pages of literature, and squeezing in naps when I can. This school year, yet again, proves to be a challenge. I'm starting my ridiculously long papers as well so it's about to get even worse. But it's fine! I've got this!
Cross country was going great and I was staying pretty healthy. Unfortunately, that wasn't the way it was supposed to be. After some intense hip flexer problems (at least not the shins so much), the season came to a close after Mount Marty. But I've learned such a valuable lesson this year, one I was well overdue for.
Over the last few seasons of running, I've drastically changed. It's been far from easy, but I feel a sense of relief. I have no idea how, but I've finally come to terms with it's time to give my body a rest.
I have decided not to compete the indoor season so my body, both physically and mentally, can heal.
Last year, when I redshirted cross country, it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. This time, I am really happy with my decision. I honestly know it is what is best for me and the team.
After running over a minute and a half slower than the last time, my freshman year, I ran Mount Marty, you would think I would be disappointed with the race. No, completely opposite. That is the strongest I have felt running for probably close to a year. Mentally, I just kept pushing through. All I could think of was running this for Caitlin. This definitely pulled me through physically as well. Running for someone else, not for myself, or to 'win,' or to be the best, makes me realize how much advantage I have taken of life. Life is precious, why be upset over little things?
As I sit here at Caribou reflecting my life at this moment, I am at peace. I called my mom to get advice for a lesson. We talked about running and my future with it. She gave me some insight about how my sister, Ali, misses it and how she still uses it as stress relief. I told my mom she's right. Her reply, "I know you're not her, just do what makes you happy."
Thanks, Mom. I am. I am really happy right now. Right now it's time for a break from competing and regain a passion that has brought me so much happiness in the past. God has really b l e s s e d me and I cannot wait to see what he does with the extra time in my life.
In the mean time,
Live & Love
